When The World Seems Grey.. It's Actually A Kaleidoscope In Waiting

”You Get In Life What You Have The Courage To Ask For”
Oprah Winfrey

I remember very distinctly when my life as I planned it hit the skids. My marriage blew up seemingly overnight and it seemed like a hand grenade had been thrown into my life. I felt like a walking zombie. Utterly heart-broken, confused and depressed - for the first time in my life I didn’t know what the next right step was.

We had moved to Flagstaff, Arizona only 8 months earlier and now I was left on my own I knew no-one and had no support structure. When things got tough or stressful, my default position had always been to work (I had started my marketing agency just a few years earlier). But now I could barely get out of bed in the morning.

Dave Matthews’ lyrics rang so true for me
”She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street.
She thinks, "hey, how did i come to this?
I dream myself a thousand times around the world,
But I can't get out of this place"
Now there's an emptiness inside her
And she'd do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together
To grey”

My world had turned from kaleidoscope to grey overnight. And for the first time in my life I didn’t know if I would ever get the color back.

I remember one day feeling particularly depressed driving down highway 17 towards Sedona. If you haven’t been on that route, it is gorgeous. Huge open skies, rocky outcrops.

All of a sudden it felt as though the Universe had opened to me and a feeling of peace and calm like I have never experienced came over me. My sorrow lifted. And suddenly I was filled with a deep spiritual certainty that I COULD ACHIEVE ANYTHING IF I PUT MY MIND TO IT. The words that came to me were “Impossible is nothing”.

I am not a religious person. But I am spiritual (deepened so much by being a single mom). This was a clear message - as clear as I have ever received, that it was time to stop feeling sorry for myself and to get my shit together.

I’d like to tell you that, that was immediately what I did. But it wasn’t. Getting my shit together has been a process. It started with me DREAMING BIG - IF IMPOSSIBLE WAS NOTHING, what kind of life would I lead?

Little did I know that not even 12 months later I would be gifted with the biggest blessing ever - my child. She would be the true catalyst for me getting my act together. And my LIFE IS BETTER TODAY THAN I COULD HAVE EVER IMAGINED.

Wherever you are today, no matter how “grey things look” - YOUR KALEIDOSCOPE IS WAITING. If impossible is nothing (which it is) - what would that look like for you and your family?

Sending you LOVE!